it doesnt smell like it used to

Freedom doesnt smell like it used to.

Theres none of the sticky sweet rasberry bursts of happiness coated with icing that melts all over eager toes. None of the zesty lemon hot pink banana whip cream that screamed welcome to wonder land. None of the grumpy purple oranges painting your monochrome world in shades of purses and shoes.

None of it.

Because freedom changed. But hey, whos complaining?

Freedom hasnt presented itself in a less appealing way yet. I think its trying to out do the A levels or perhaps road kill in the " God i hope that never happens to me" department.Either that or it went on a holiday and left Lucifer in charge.

Enough of the mopey sloppy slobery stuff.

Meanwhile ( I say that way too often dont I. I think the nanny says it too. With like a Queens or a Brooklyn-ish accent. Meanwhooiilllee.Yes.)

Meanwhile, i just got back from KL. I was there for like ages man. Okay i was there since the 6th? Something like that and i got back yesterday. My Kl mantra to keep me sane was shop, eat, shop, movie, massage, shop, reflexology, eat, shop. Practically all that i have been doing. Actually, there should be more "eat"s in that mantra than "shop".

I think its a culture in KL. To eat, that is. I mean there are more food shops, restaurants, coffee houses, bars etc. than there are shops. I am not kidding. So all the weight i lost over my A's just hopped on back.

Say hello to tranny santa. I exaggerate to prove my point.

Ive got pictures. But im still a lazy procrastinating mammoth. Clearly, even A's cant help you there. So those pictures like every other picture i said would come up on this blog will sadly, never make it here. Try facebook. You might get lucky.

Speaking of facefuckingbook. I CANT ACCEPT ANY REQUESTS. It used to hang whenever i tried. But NOW, i just cant get to the page. Meanwhile, there are heads forming a mount sinai and i need to either ignore or accept. Ignore or accept. IGNORE OR...

I think this has gone on long enough. For the record, im not checking for typos. I never liked doing so. So i wont. Hah.

Much love,

farah

Pending

1. watch prison break, lost, desperate housewives, brothers and sisters and heroes. ( thats like kazzilllion hours of tv i lost in the past 2 years)

2.get a positive confirmation from the mother about releif teaching.

3.find a husband, get married, have kids, win the lottery and live in dubai.(in any order)

4.Figure out what the hell i want to do with my life if point 3 doesnt happen. So thats some soul searching.

5.Sort out my hospital internship thingamagic.

6.Start making my present for maziah

7.Sign up for some community service.

8.Say goodbye to all my exciting plans that i seriously thought i would pull through with this time ( or be more positive and pull through with em ) - yeap, settling for the latter

9. get together with Tim

10. plan the herritage tour

11. Read Read Read

12. clean

13. Meet up with tkgs peeps.

14. Meet up with cedar peeps

15 DRIVE

16 get famous on the internet by making videos. Sounds so dodgy, no? cal me *winks* No. dont. uh. call.

17 Meet up with the TJ people

18 Get some students

19 Sign up at persian wives.com. Heh.

20 Plan my bollywood partaaay

circus-mania

Hello hello. No, my A's are still not over. I still have about 7 hours before that happens. I'm sitting in starbucks, completing the very last bit of revision i've got to do for the very final a' level paper.It's like a tribute to starbucks and the two years of (fantastic) service. I was just thinking, i should have kept all my receipts from '06.I imagine it would amount to a MINIMUM of 500 bucks. Ive most definitly bought more than 50 drinks in the past 2 years. Lord, imagine all that money i could have saved.But then again, imagine all those days i would have spent as a miserable despondent thing deprived from caffeine. Imagine all those meetings and outings i wouldnt have gone on. And all that studying i wouldnt have completed. Nah, 500 dollars well spent. Most, definitely.

I'm here to say Britney's new Album Circus is A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. Very ala Blackout but i think the whole electronic pop adaptation she has going on is a really good sound.Other than womanizer which i'm sure most of you have heard, her songs 'rock me in" and "amnesia" are really catchy. Absolutely dance-able. Speaking of dancing, i cant wait to go dancing on the 1st of december. I cant beleive i actually kept my word and didnt go dancing since last year's new years party. Woohoo. Tj's post-prom is on the 1st of decemer at DXO. I know a few of you have been bugging me to get you cheaper tickets but it really doesnt make a difference if you buy at the door cos DXO has brought the price down to 20 bucks. So, COME.

Also, i have to revive that list of things i wanted to do since my PSLE ended.HAHA. Thats how deprived i am. I never complete these lists. In fact, i didnt even get started on the one from my O's. BUT this time, its going to be different. I want to go to Chor bazaar, i want to do some heritage exploring, i want to go on multiple picnncs, go for concerts and plays, do community service, and and and finally go to sentosa (which i've boycotted for years now). I think a few friends and myself should go on a mini holiday at sentosa. The rooms there are friigggin cheap and it'll be fun spending the day soaking up the sun and the nights partying at cafe del mar.

Aaaah.

Oh lord.Back to reality (and work). Freedom, here i come. :)

Im smiling my way through today and paper 4 is noy going to bring me down.
Yippee.

Much love,
farah

Hello.Goodbye.

Listening to the soft rock weekend, bombarded by memories from yesteryear a day before my last paper.

Oh, the ironies of life.

(Lord, look what copyright infringement has done to my playlist)




Like yesterday, when the sun came out and burned orange through the storm - just before it set. But then a perfect rainbow arched across my bedroom window. I guess in every change, something beautiful is borne.

I cant wait to see how everything falls into place. For all of us.

For now, im immersing my self in memories i dont want to lose.
So, i'll just keep remembering just in case they start to fade.

I'm impatient to start carving more memories

Much love,

Farah (:

hmphh

PAPER 4 is such a spoiler.

i guess im just going to have to ace it

Birth

Guess whos back ? Back again?

Farahs back.

Uh.

Tell some men.

Rub my back rub my back rub my...

I'm finally seeing the light cascading theough the fine canopy above. After using a machate to get this far through, the next two weeks really feels like a breeze. And after that, its freedom baby.

I feel completely ready to take on the world. I know what i want in most areas if my life - at least for the next 9 months or so.

I know what im looking for in a social aspect - the type of people i want to meet , the ones who i should prioritise and the ones i want to spend as much time as possible with.

I cant wait to start working and learning - learning things that ive put off for so long like learning Arabic , learning how to sew, baking and cooking.

I cant wait to throw get togethers just because i can.

And i cant wait to do some major soul-searching. Figuring out what i want to do with my life. What sort of career i want, where i want to live, where i want to settle down (gosh, im feeling old)

For now..

Ive got a beat im dancing to and its Dire Straits' Walk Of Life
Watch the video and get whistling :)
And tell me you dont feel positively FREE.

Much Love and Anticipation,

Farah

vote.

The End

Graduation was fantastic. The farewell concert was great :) ( The English department's skit and Lubna's poem being the hihlights).

I cant seem to take on a summative approach and articulate my emotions cos they are still pretty much an amalgam of sadness and excitement and there are just too many thoughts a float - so much so incoherence is a must.

I cannot beleive that two years have zoomed by and that SO much has happened in just two years. I cannot beleive that i know some of my friends for only 2years cos it feels like there was NEVER a first meeting. We were lifelong friends.

In another life, perhaps.

I really regret not gettin my act together and getting stuff and writting my messages down for friends and teachers but i cant seem to comprehend how it can possibly be OVER.

Anyway,
I feel extremely motivated and i think that today was a great start to my 20 days of hard-core, intensive mugging. I need this.
I will make it.
I have faith that we all will.

Lunch which followed was fantastic too- Although it has left me feeling very oily inside and out.( we went for korean food so we had to fry stuff). Also, we went in the craziest outfits. SO much fun.

Surprisingly, many people enjoyed mike's and i tongue-in-cheek list of important events. That was a really nice note to leave on.

I guess thats it for me.
Its me and the A's and i plan to whoop its ass so bad it wont know what hit it.

Yes, i am talking about an examination here.

Much Love,
Farah :)